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At times u dont have any directions. I don't know whats happening around me. May be at times i get the feeling that i get things that i dont deserve. So now i'm the co-ordinator of Rajagiri National Business Quiz -2014 which i definitely feel is not deserving for me . I hate being in the spot light. i hate when people look up me for direction. I'm never a good leader. I don't think i could ever be a good leader.
May be i think i'm burning out ..! For the first time in past 2 years i feel i'm running short of self motivation.
I can't let my friends down. I need to ensure that they get whatever things they deserve.
All i wanted was a little world of mine. clearly its not the state of mind that i have right now.
One thing i hate the most is PHONE CALLS .. ! and i'm in such a postion where in i'm forced to make phone calls..!
fuck me .. i have no idea ..
may be the failed inaugration cermony of campion-11 is still in the back of my mind ..!
i was a total failure over there. The image still lingers around my mind ..!
yep .. that had changed me a lot ..!
where can i find happiness ?? ... I should continue teaching.. once i stop teaching, my confidence level drops down significantly ..! thats what happening to me right now .. !
By the way i screwed up my internship, i think that is also affecting me ..!
wish i had a time machine .. to jus go back a few months ..! i definitley needed to undo certain things..
i know i made some mistakes.. i want to correct it before it gets worse..
i should have said NO to being the coordinator of Rajagiri National Business Quiz
i should have not applied when the internship offer for Stellar came up .
I should have sat through for the Tata Elxsi internship which came soon after that.
I should have gone for the BPCL internship which was readily available.
The only thing which makes me feel good about is the NGO that we have formed .. and when i hate it when i get to hear that i have no class ..!
Things are not Adding up for me .. I'm not in the peaceful state of mind..! I get a feeling that i;m losing control of myself
May be i think i'm burning out ..! For the first time in past 2 years i feel i'm running short of self motivation.
I can't let my friends down. I need to ensure that they get whatever things they deserve.
All i wanted was a little world of mine. clearly its not the state of mind that i have right now.
One thing i hate the most is PHONE CALLS .. ! and i'm in such a postion where in i'm forced to make phone calls..!
fuck me .. i have no idea ..
may be the failed inaugration cermony of campion-11 is still in the back of my mind ..!
i was a total failure over there. The image still lingers around my mind ..!
yep .. that had changed me a lot ..!
where can i find happiness ?? ... I should continue teaching.. once i stop teaching, my confidence level drops down significantly ..! thats what happening to me right now .. !
By the way i screwed up my internship, i think that is also affecting me ..!
wish i had a time machine .. to jus go back a few months ..! i definitley needed to undo certain things..
i know i made some mistakes.. i want to correct it before it gets worse..
i should have said NO to being the coordinator of Rajagiri National Business Quiz
i should have not applied when the internship offer for Stellar came up .
I should have sat through for the Tata Elxsi internship which came soon after that.
I should have gone for the BPCL internship which was readily available.
The only thing which makes me feel good about is the NGO that we have formed .. and when i hate it when i get to hear that i have no class ..!
Things are not Adding up for me .. I'm not in the peaceful state of mind..! I get a feeling that i;m losing control of myself
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